Pushing Others Away

     Its very common that when we become bullied we start to push everyone away, isolating them from us. Soon our closes friends become distant strangers because we were afraid they would start to bully us as well so we don't let them help us at all. I remember when I was getting bullied I pushed everybody away, my best friends, my parents, and even my aunt and uncle ( whom I adore). And the only reason I did that was because I thought they wouldn't understand or would think I was just a cry baby, I soon just ignored my friends, didn't answer phone calls from my family and I would just sit in my room and and watch movies and cry myself to sleep. So why do we do this? Why do we say we have nobody to talk to but yet we pushed them all away and this was because we were fearfully and with that we made assumptions. Because we were getting bullied we assumed that everyone was out to get us, that we had to worry about getting hurt from the ones who love us. We don't tell them anything because we feel we can handle it all and don't want them to get involved and possibly make matters extremely worse. I remember I thought I could handle it all and so I just tried putting on a strong face, but one day my friend face-timed me and wanted to talk and she said she heard the rumors that were going around about me from my peers (and she doesn't even live in the same state as me,she used to) and that then I broke down in tears, right in front of her I knew I couldn't handle it, so I just cried. I felt like I hit rock bottom and I was just waiting for her to just say everything will be alright and that speech that everybody says, and though she started out with that she gave me some very good advice. She gave me a reality check, she pointed out that I still had my friends and that they were concerned that I'd fallen into a depression, and thats exactly when I realized I needed my friends more than anything. When someone that you trust is trying to help let them, they are trying to make it better for you and proving that though people might be bullying you, you still have them. So please for the sake of your happiness DON'T push your friends away, they really want to be there for you and you need to trust them and allow them in.